Never Once

My sister in law sent me a song a few days ago, and she probably has no idea how much I needed it. Here are the lyrics:

Standing on this mountaintop
Looking just how far we’ve come
Knowing that for every step
You were with us

Kneeling on this battle ground
Seeing just how much You’ve done
Knowing every victory
Was Your power in us

Scars and struggles on the way
But with joy our hearts can say
Yes, our hearts can say

Never once did we ever walk alone
Never once did You leave us on our own
You are faithful, God, You are faithful

Kneeling on this battle ground
Seeing just how much You’ve done
Knowing every victory
Was Your power in us

Scars and struggles on the way
But with joy our hearts can say
Yes, our hearts can say

Never once did we ever walk alone
Never once did You leave us on our own
You are faithful, God, You are faithful
You are faithful, God, You are faithful

Scars and struggles on the way
But with joy our hearts can say
Never once did we ever walk alone
Carried by Your constant grace
Held within Your perfect peace
Never once, no, we never walk alone

Never once did we ever walk alone
Never once did You leave us on our own
You are faithful, God, You are faithful

Every step we are breathing in Your grace
Evermore we’ll be breathing out Your praise
You are faithful, God, You are faithful
You are faithful, God, You are faithful

You are faithful, God, You are faithful
You are faithful, God, You are faithful

Literally after the day I found this out, I said to Randy that I had to stop for a second and review my life. If I sat here and shared with you my story from beginning to end, I should not be here. With every situation in my life and marriage, God course corrected me onto the right path every time I should have veered off into a ravine. Times I took the wrong turns intentionally, and other times it was just life. At any rate, He cared enough about me to set me on the right way and blessed me beyond measure. Looking at the way God has directed my life, there is no doubt He’s at work now.

I know this is going to be a journey. I’m still in a waiting period, not sure what next week even is going to hold. This is a time when I could be gripped by fear, fearing the worst. But instead, I choose to focus on the faithfulness of God. He’s never left me, and this is His story, not mine. I feel like all eyes are on me now, and my deepest prayer is that God can use my story to help someone else. Every nurse I come in contact with, every hurting person who may have cancer who has lost all hope, the team of surgeons working on me….I pray they see how amazing my God is and they won’t be able to deny it.

On a personal note, I can’t say enough how much everyone’s support and prayers mean to me. The Facebook banners that say “Team Jenny,” to the pink ribbons, to the random text message I get in the middle of the day letting me know you’re thinking of me, to the gifts I’ve received to encourage me. I feel the strength of your prayers and I feel the faith of my friends.

Specific Prayers Needed:
Thursday is my appointment at the Helen Graham Cancer center. There I will meet with a team who will discuss my case and treatment options. First and foremost, I’m praying for a divine healing in my body. I’m speaking God’s word daily aloud and if you will join me, I’d be happy to send you a list of scriptures I’m using so you can pray them too. Secondly, please pray for the team that will be assigned to me, that they will have wisdom to make the best choices for my care. Thirdly, pray for wisdom for Randy and I as we are given options and that we will choose the best ones for our situation.